and now, im not gonna post everything out of my head with 10000 differend blogs.
no, now im gonna write everything just out. out of my soul.
i would love to write everything down and burn it of. burn the shit things out of my life.
burn it douwn, out, DELATE everything.
no, its not so easy. life isnt just a document where you can eliminate everything you dont like.
life is much more. and i wish i could be much easyer. i dont want to say, i feel despressed, no i am worried the thing is, i have to find out about what. i dont even know what my problem is. so many things inside my head. i dont know where to think first. i dont know ANYTHING! please, could someone help me out??

you know, when you are listening to a song, without lyrics without anything just close your eyes and fly in your own world. the song is creating your world.
the song says a lot even if its without lyrics.
and you start to think about everything, you start getting worried about everything.
and then you start to feel sad. so much memories, so many fears.
the whole fucking day youre not thinking about it and then? listening to one fucking song and everything comes up?

i just dont know what to do. i feel like crying, but i dont want to cry.
im not a baby anymore. i have to know, that life isnt easy. crying doesnt make it better. no, it makes it just worser!!

vandalism.